I am angry at myself for gaining weight. This is weighing heavy on my mind. I wont let it get to me. I am exercising 3 – 4 days a week. I will focus on getting my body in shape.  Building muscles. Also figuring out better meals.

Not going to be angry. Positive thoughts!

Not Happy

I’m not happy with the amount of weight I have gained. Yes I stepped on the scale again. I know they say dont do it, but I did. I am up 5 lbs. Now I have gained 20 lbs. I have decided that I need to stop intuitive eating. Basically I have been eating whatever I want. I now need to figure out how to eat without gaining more weight.

I wish I could afford a couch but I dont have that kind of money. Just to join a community forum group is 30 a month. Crazy! I will spend this week researching how to lose the weight without having to go on a diet.

I was so happy that my blood tests were so good since I quit dieting. But now I need to change it. I have hurt my lumbar muscles which makes it difficult to exercise. I am slowly starting with basic stretching. Go walking on the days when it isn’t raining. I will do this. I will lose 10 lbs by the end of March. That is my goal.

UPDATE – Feeling Good

I know I said I wouldn’t do it, but I did. I stepped on the scale this morning. I needed to see if I did gain more weight. I was pleasantly surprised that I stayed the same. It was also a relief. I was worried that I gained over the holidays. Now that I know I have been the same weight since October, I feel good.

My body has found the weight it wants to be at. That’s a good thing. Now I can focus on getting some type of movement into my days and switch up a bit of my foods. Most of my craving are gone. I did crave a cheeseburger from McD’s but I got on from Wendy’s instead. It was yummy and it took care of that craving. Sure I could eat burgers daily but I dont need to.

Yesterday I had an avocado for the first time in a bout 2 months. Oh it was tasty! I think slowly I will add back some foods that I haven’t had since I was doing keto. All those foods were no interest to me. Now I can see that I will eat some of them again. I have hardly wanted any meats or veggies Now I am starting to want them again.


I have been trying to decide what I can do for exercise. Something that I can enjoy doing. I am thinking weight lifting, Tai-chi, maybe yoga. Simple, easy on my body. I don’t need to be all sweaty and worn out.  I bought some resistance bands and am using those. 10 mins a day to start. I need to go slow since it’s been a while. I will add 10 mins more next week.

Changing up my foods too. Going to try to have more veggies. Not easy to do since they aggravate my IBS. So I really need to be careful and not over do it or eat the wrong veggies. Maybe a veggie soup? Need to find some easy soup recipes. Salad sounds yummy but only a few times a week or its to much veggie.