I have been binging again. *sigh* I am trying not to eat so much, but I am hungry. I think I might b eating out of boredom.
My newest addiction is Costco chocolate chip cookies. We bought the big box of bake at home cookies. I’m been having 2 cookies and a scoop of ice cream every night for the past week. Last night I finally said no to the ice cream and only had one cookie. Reasons for this, the ice cream was causing a lot of gas and some IBS pain and the second cookie wasn’t needed. I was satisfied with just one cookie. Yay! for me.
I did give in and step on the scale this morning. I thought I would be upset about the number, but I wasn’t. I had really thought I gained a lot of weight but only 2 lbs. I have been feeling bloated, that is why I wanted to weigh in. See if it was weight gain or just bloating. I plan to put the scale away at the end of this month. I’ve decided that September 1st I will start paying more attention to my food. Until then I am still eating and binging on what my body is craving.
I can’t seem to get over my need for cheerios. What is it about them?? Seriously??!! I can eat them all the time and any time. I tried some harvest crunch, but it’s not the same and it gave me gas and a rumbly tummy. Not sure what to do with it now that I am pretty sure I can’t eat it.
For the most part, I think my binges have slowed down. I’m not craving everything anymore. This is a learning process. I did feel some sadness about gaining weight. But I am dealing with those feelings. There is no reason to feel guilt for enjoying my food.
Hubs and I have been watching Big Brother since it started It’s something we started when we first dated. Same with Survivor. Anyways, We always make that popcorn night. THe last few years we watch the show and eat keto snacks. The new season of Big Brother started last night. We decided on popcorn. I was a bit iffy on having it after what happened last time.
I got the air popper out and made some. Added some salt and a bit of butter. I enjoyed it. I did have some bloating, otherwise I was good. I think I can safely say that air popped is the only way I can eat popcorn. Good, because I love popcorn.
I did have a few wine gums too. They were not as tasty as I had remembered. Maybe I need to buy a different brand? I also had some gluten free pretzels a few days ago. Oh my! How I have missed pretzels! Love the crunch and the salt. I went with gluten free because I wasn’t willing to have all that wheat flour. It’s a trigger for IBS.
I have noticed that my mood is better. I’m happier.
Wow. The last 2 days have been horrible. My IBS has flared up. I found out that I can not eat microwave popcorn. After about 40 mins of finishing it, I started to have pain. I was up all night. There was a point that I really considered going to the ER.
Now I am eating very bland foods. Still have pain, but it is getting better. Lots of water, peppermint tea and I was able to have some coffee. My dinner was grilled chicken and some white rice. Yes I know white rice is not the healthiest but because of IBS I can’t eat any type of brown rice. AND who cares! I love white rice.
We are having a major heat wave coming through this weekend. Will be getting up to 40c. that is hot for this time of year and about average for this area. So glad I have an AC unit to keep me cool. I had heat stroke many years ago and ever since then I cant handle anything about 33c. It causes a lot of my health issues to flare up.
Hubby is out buying ice cream. LOL.. I want to try a non dairy, lactose free ice cream. Will see what he comes back with for me.