Hiccup

I had a slight hiccup on Saturday. I was feeling anxious about my weight. I was worried that I gained again. I felt so bloated and had eaten a bit too much. I fretted for 3 hours and then decided to weigh myself. What a relief! I hadn’t gained any weight and was 1 pound less. I’m glad that my weight is stable.ย  With Christmas coming I am a little worried about all the yummy foods.

It will be the first time in about 10 years that I will be allowing myself to eat real treats. I plan to bake cookies using real ingredients. No replacements or subbing out my sugars. Just using what the recipes call for. Regular flour, not almond. Real sugar, not splenda or stevia.

Maybe I will share some of my recipes.

 

September

Hard to believe it’s already September. This year went by so fast.

I spent this summer eating foods that I haven’t had in years. Some foods I binged and others, well I realized they really didn’t taste as good as I had remembered. Over all, I was happy this summer. Not thinking about food, counting carbs, wondering what to make for every meal, looking up endless recipes. I did none of that. I was free to do whatever I wanted.

Now reality is setting in. *sigh* I weighed in this morning. 170lbs…. I’m not happy with that number. But when I look in the mirror I don’t see the extra weight. I actually see a beautiful body. Yes, sure my clothes are tight. So what! I can go buy big clothesย  new clothes.

I know that I need to now start looking at what I am eating. Cut back of a few things. But I also won’t be denying myself the foods that I want.ย  I did try to exercise, but I really dont want to do it. So I have been going for a walk in the morning. Just a 20 minutes walk a few times a week. I’ll keep doing that but if I don’t feel like it, then I don’t go. I am getting my mom’s treadmill. That way I can walk at home during the winter months.

One plus that I noticed….my sex drive is up. I actually have time to think about sex instead of constantly thinking about food, recipes, cooking and counting carbs. My sex drive was completely gone because I was obsessed about my diet.

very day I am learning new things about myself.

I finally told myself that I am beautiful. It’s a big monsterous step for me.

 

Set Point

I’m learning and trying to find my set point weight. What is it? no idea. I know that I am still over eating on some things. And I have gained weight. I feel bloated. But That is my fault for eating the wrong foods. I’m hoping that I don’t gain more. I don’t want to buy all new clothes.

Today I am starting to watch what I eat. I think I am starting to recognize my hunger cues. Something that I lost years ago. I’m still enjoying my Cheerios… LoL I find that they give me that sweet treat that I want.

I also did a workout. Just simple stuff to see what level I am at. Not going to push it. If I do, I will not enjoy doing it.

Other than that, I am feeling pretty good today. My mood is happy.

New Week

I have gained 3 more pounds. My fault. I indulged a bit more over the weekend. Had beer ๐Ÿป and pizza ๐Ÿ•, French fries ๐ŸŸ,jelly beans and lots of fruit. Was it a good idea? I thought so at the time.

I think it is time to start watching my portions. And I need to eat more veggies. I have noticed that I am not craving things that I ate while on keto. Like beef, chocolate, nuts, eggs and bacon. I find this a bit strange. They are all foods I love. What has changed? Not sure, but will figure it out. I’m doing this intuitive eating without any help. Just Google helping me. I can’t afford to pay for a couch or books. I dont have the money. So I am winging it! Wooohooo! Lots of reading on free sites, means I have to figure out what is good advice and what is not. No worries, I am smart, I’ll figure it out.

No plans this week. Need to do a trip to Costco. Saturday is my granddaughters 3rd birthday. Will be so good to see her. Other than that, I am just my life to the fullest. Watching tv, crocheting and eating whatever I want.